Its so close! Excitement, anticipation, longing, unknowing, fear, so many mixed feeling about this final move! For close to the last 14 years I have been married to an amazing Military man, we have moved where the US Coast Guard has sent us. Our lives have been dependent on them. My husband has been on ships, traveled, been gone for over half the last 4 years on the road, we have lived in housing that was not ours, and we have been told what we can and cannot do in that housing, many Birthdays, anniversary’s and special occasions have been missed, we have been a military family.
But soon, very soon we will become a civilian family, my husband who has served a 20 year career will officially be retired in October of this year. In 26 day the boys and I will be moving Home to Mississippi where we will be putting down roots and finally settling. Dave will follow us a shortly and be on terminal leave. We found a home in Mississippi when we where stationed there, fell in love with it and realized that was where God wanted for us to be. The town our house is in is a community we want to be a part of, one we want our boys to grow up in.
There is so much we have to do over the few weeks as we prepare to move, and as we do I am also overwhelmed with the fact that we have lived here for 7 years ( 2 duty tours). That is 7 years of friendships that will be very difficult to leave. When we moved back here in 09 we had only been in MS for a year, it was a difficult move for me. I had found a place that I knew in my heart was home, a place that I knew we were suppose to be, but for some reason God was taking us away from that . And not only was he taking us away from a place that we where so happy at, but he was taking us back to a place that we did not like very much. You see the Up of Michigan is cold, bitterly so, and it is very hard on my body. Being raised in California the snow and cold is very foreign to me, and with the accident I had 11 years ago it physically hurts my body. But I was talking with my father one day before we moved and he told me that maybe God knew we had unfinished business in the Soo and that was why he was sending us back.
Well I now feel that my life is so much richer, full of friendships that I did not have 4 years ago. I have meet and become close to so many amazing people over the past 4 years, that it makes this a bittersweet move. I have a hard time when I start to think of move day, many words come to mind as I am very excited, but I sometimes end with tears falling on my cheeks as the reality hits me. So I resolve to not say goodbye, but instead to say see you when I see you!
As we prepare, I am trying to get use to the idea of no safety net. Its scary. We are ready for this change and look forward to what God has in store for our family.
“The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.”